I never knew you were a part of me until you were slipping away,
Drip by drip, day after day.
I knew something was wrong because nothing seemed right.
Silent, transient you,
Leaving before you could ever be
Known, named, desired.
No symptoms hinted at your presence except for a strange hot essence,
Inside, outside, through and through.
There was more of me when there was you.
Everlasting, invisible you,
Residing within, tucked inside
Womb, heart, dreams, mind.
I was unprepared to question my plans until you halted the temporal sands
Subtly – instantly – letting me dwell on possibility.
You weren’t wrong, you weren’t right for me.
Mysterious, untouchable you.
You entered my life and left me
Startled, delighted, confused, aching, wondering…
How it all happened, what it was even about.
You were inexplicable, a miracle, a what if, a hypothetical.
You were what would never be, yet what would always be a part of me.
